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Closing The Chapter

​ I know it’s been a while since I’ve updated here. For those who’ve been following along — thank you for sticking with me, even when I wasn’t posting. I’ve been sharing here and there over on Instagram. If you want to follow along:  @jjlkh ⸻ Last Kadcyla  💉  | Closing this chapter Today feels exactly how it should. Not bright and overwhelming. Not heavy either. Just steady. A little warm, a little cloudy, calm in a way that lets me move. I feel good today. I’m running around, making bread, doing laundry, cleaning the house. If it were a big sunny, high-energy day, it would actually be too much. This—right here—is perfect for where I am. And that feels like the right way to close this chapter. ⸻ To all of you  🤍 Everyone’s cheering, congratulating, asking how I’m celebrating. I know it comes from a good place, and I appreciate it. And I have to say this — because since this morning, and especially since I got home, I’ve been completely overwhelmed… in the best way....

The Long Haul & Hair Loss Reflection

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The Long Haul It’s been a while since I’ve written anything here. I thought my story would wrap up neatly with the original TCHP chemo, surgery, radiation, and a shiny little pathological complete response at the end. Instead, I’m still in this—round five of T-DM1 chemo (KADCYLA, for those who want the medical spelling). My doctor cheerfully reminded me that in two more sessions, I’ll be halfway done. I hated that framing—halfway of a long, grinding process. Then my sister-from-another-mister (late-in-life bestie, choose your label) cut through it with humor. She said, “You’re in the single digits now.” And I liked that. Single digits. Nine more to go. It feels more like a countdown than a sentence. I have a lot to catch everyone up on and I have started that blog, but for today I wanted to finally post a blog I had started writing in July and never finished. So “HAIR” (pun intended) it is. Hair We Go Again When my hair first started falling out during TCHP chemo Februa...

Radiation Rave, Chemo Roulette & the Juric Fast Pass

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August 11 Preview Let’s just start with the obvious: Round 3 of chemo hits August 11. While T-DM1 isn’t the full-body demolition crew that TCHP was, it still managed to drag me into the fatigue club while casually rearranging my organs. My skin’s officially starting to toast, my labs read like I’m 90 and just ran a marathon, and my EKG had everyone scratching their heads. But it’s “not acute,” just inflammation and the classic: “We’ll keep an eye on it.” Translation: let us know when things start falling off. ✅ Breathless? Yep. ✅ Feels like Milo is sitting on my chest? Also yes. ✅ Tired? Please. ✅ Brain won ’ t stop? Naturally. So we ride. Radiation & Chemo Watch: Internal Combustion Lite Radiation is daily, and I haven’t burst into flames—so we’re counting that as a win. My chest wall is glowing (inside and out), and I’ve officially hit halfway: 15 out of 30 sessions done. Meanwhile, my bloodwork is giving full chaotic energy. One test basically said, “Ther...

Backstage Passes Only: Enter at Your Own Risk

  The Backstage Pass Crew After the last blog I wrote, I kind of thought I wrapped everything up with a neat little bow. Done. Finito. Moving on. But then you —my true ride-or-die crew—kept showing up. Every single one of you who’s getting this kept reaching out, checking in, giving hugs, dropping off snacks, or just being there . You’ve continued to listen , hold me up , and quietly remind me that I’m not alone . I figured I’d stop writing and just keep moving, because honestly, you people don’t need much—you just show up with love, snacks, and psychic-level intuition.   But then I realized I wasn’t sharing anymore. And suddenly I was back to texting updates, responding to people, trying to remember who knew what and when , and it turned into one of those “did I leave the stove on?” spirals, except with cancer updates instead of fire hazards. Ahhhhhhhhhhh!! There has to be a better way. And there is. I realized I can still blog , but it doesn’t need to be for the ma...